During the day, her mother’s confusion was manageable, more or less.  They would wake up, have their tea and toast, and walk around the house, noticing which flowers were waxing and which were waning.  After their mid-morning nap, they would have lunch, and then settle into a long game of cards or — her mother’s favorite — dominoes.

“My mother is fine all day long,” she’d say to the doctor.  “But at night she gets so agitated, so confused.  She sees things that aren’t there.  She thinks the house is always being broken into, and when I try to help her, she backs away from me like I’m a stranger.”

The doctor nodded.  “We call that ‘sundowning,’” he said. “When the sun goes down, dementia rises like the moon.”

He went on to suggest some calming pre-bedtime rituals:  warm milk, soft music, maybe a night light.

“Think about when you were a child,” he said.  “When the light drained out of your room and the darkness poured in — it can be very disconcerting, very disorienting.”

Psalm 107 is a psalm of lament.  It's a song sung by a disoriented soul watching the light drain out of the world, and the shadows of death and pain pour in.  It's a psalm sung, for example, by someone caring for an aging parent, someone who has been newly diagnosed, someone who is lonely, scared, or suffering.  And yet, this is how the psalmist begins:  “O give thanks to the Lord, for God is good; God’s steadfast love endures forever.”

At first glance, it seems harsh and unfeeling to command the daughter whose mother is evaporating to give thanks to God.  But the deep wisdom in Psalm 107 is this:  God is with her.  God lives and breathes and moves in the valley of the shadow of death and dementia, making mugs of warm milk, playing dominoes, and whispering into the darkness, “Let there be light!  Let there be hope!  The sun will not go down on my people!”

As people of faith, this is what we are called to believe, who we are called to be, and what we are called to proclaim.  The psalmist makes this very clear:  “Oh, thank God — God is so good!  God’s love never runs out.  All of you set free by God, tell the world!”

In Mary Oliver’s tender, powerful collection of poems, Red Bird, she takes the psalmist’s charge to heart.  Even in the valley of the shadow of grief, even in the very presence of death, her eyes and ears are open to the grace of God throughout creation.  Meadowlarks, crows, hummingbirds, sparrows, and red birds all sing of a God who is at work in the world, often hidden, but never gone.  In the poem, “Sometimes,” Oliver sums it all up with her instructions for living a life:  

Pay attention.  Be astonished.  Tell about it.

Tell us about it!  Where do you hear God's whispers, even in the shadows?


Thanks to the anonymous artist who captured this bathing beauty!